Gratitude #78

14 Aug

Rejoice always, pray continually give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. I Thessalonians 5:16-18

I can’t express how grateful I am to reach one hundred blog posts. I set a goal and God blessed me to reach it. God is truly answering my prayers.

To some this may seem like no big deal at all, but if you could know my story, you would know that accomplishing goals, or even having a mindset to set goals has been something that has not been easy for me. Even concerning this blog, I would question myself as to why I am doing it. Why do I blog? I blog because I love to write, I love to share my thoughts with others, and receive feedback. It’s enjoyable, it’s thought provoking, and fun.

I enjoy looking back in my journals, well in this case my blog posts, and seeing how God has moved in my life. I know I have a story to share, as we all do, and blogging is one of my outlets. I truly believe I was called to share my past, as well as my day to day life, in my blog. How I do it all is by the grace of God and a heart that is filled with an abundance of gratitude.

I have to be honest it gets pretty hard not to look at the numbers, not to many followers, Lord. Noone read my post today, Lord. Does it really matter if I post today or not, Lord? What do I know about that subject anyway, Lord? These are some of the questions I ask my Father concerning my blog. It’s always the same response, I sent my word concerning your writing, so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it, Isaiah 55:11. This blog is so much bigger than me, there is a God given purpose.

I thank God for the gifting to write as well as blog. I also give honor to my Apostle Dr. Charissee Lewis, for her teaching of the word of God. There is always a fresh rehma word coming forth at WPKM Ministries. Her love for the Lord, and for people, the desire to see souls set free and delivered is so passionate. Her love of the word of God and the fire of God is deposited in my spirit and propells me forward to want to grow in God and serve Him in a better way. I am truly thankful for her and all of my WPKM brothers and sisters in Christ. Also my wonderful amazing children and family, they are my followers, and biggest critics. I appreciate all of the input, and the words of encouragement to continue to go forward. There is nothing like a great tribe, (as my Apostle would say). Because of my tribe I am able to write this blog.

Needless to say I am super grateful, gratitude is who I am and what I am about. To God be all the Glory!!!


Gratitude #77

13 Aug

Fools give full vent to their rage, but the wise bring calm in the end. -Proverbs 29:11

Rage: Feel or express violent uncontrollable anger.

I am so grateful today that I am delivered from the spirit of rage. My most recent encounter with that spirit was this past week, when I had an argument with a fellow family member. I can’t really say that it was an argument, I believe that we were both very passionate about what we were saying. During the conversation, I could feel the rage creeping in. I could feel it actually talking to me saying, “say more, tell her how you really feel, go for it, and then hang up the phone.” Thanks be unto to God that I didn’t give in to that voice, I showed love even when I felt like I had more to say. I am grateful for deliverance from the spirit of rage.

The bible says, “fools give full vent to their rage.” I was almost that fool. As I studied this scripture, I found a translation from, Gill’s Exposition of the Bible, that said, “A fool uttereth all his mind, all at once, unnecessarily and unseasonably, without reservation or caution. He tells all he knows, all that is in his breast, whatever he thinks, and all that he intends to do; what or whom he loves or hates. A fool brings out his wrath. He cannot restrain it nor hide it, it breaks out all at once.

This right here is why I am so grateful that God dealt with me, I am now walking free from rage. It says that the fool uttereth all his mind, all at once. Rage will have you saying whatever, to whoever, talking out the side of your neck, without regard to if it is a loved one or not. It will have you saying whatever you think you want to say, because you cannot restrain it and rage will not be hidden, it has to be seen and  heard. I know this because I have been on the giving and receiving end of rage. It doesn’t feel good on either end.

With rage you will pour out every thought in your mind. It will carry on until all the wrath has emptied itself from you.  Then my God, what you are left with, such shame, embarrassment, and regret. I felt such hurt for the person I had unleashed my rage on, and hurt for myself because I didn’t mean it. You will only feel this way, if you are not to arrogant, or prideful, or cold hearted to recognize what you have done. When I let rage control me like that, it would be like coming off of a high or stepping back into my body,  and wondering what just happened? Why did say that? The guilt is unbearable, but in the moment I couldn’t stop the words, the anger that I felt was so strong. I wanted the person on the receiving in to feel the hurt and anger that I was feeling. They say hurting people hurt people. What or whom he loves or hates, as the text stated above.

The scripture also tells us, “But the wise bring calm in the end.” As I had continued to read Gill’s Exposition of the Bible it talked about the wise man. “The wise man keepeth till afterwards. He reserves his mind, and thoughts, and designs to himself; and does not discover them until a proper opportunity offers. When to disclose them is most to his advantage; he restrains his wrath and anger, defers showing it to a proper time. When it may answer a better purpose and he may do it without sin.”

In the argument that I had with a family member I am grateful for wisdom. I kept my thoughts I did not give in to wrath and anger. When we both had calmed down I called back the next day, I expressed that I give up my right to be right. I don’t want to argue, and I will listen and pray about any situation we discuss. The devil got no glory from that situation and I was over joyed because I had passed a test. Also the family member told me how proud they were of me, I had come a long way.

I am grateful that I have brought this to light, because rage hurts and destroys relationships, and families, careers and lives. At the conference that I attended, someone said, “You can’t unring the bell.” That statement was so powerful to me, because it was so true.  Once words are said you can’t take them back. The person may forgive you, or you may have had to forgive someone. But the words were said, I pray that overtime they will be forgotten. The point is that you just can’t unring the bell.

I pray that we all remember that everything we feel doesn’t have to be said, take it to God in prayer. The bible says, “Be angry but do not sin, don’t let the sun go down on your wrath.” I pray that we will not let rage, or anger have it’s way in our lives. Be wise and wait, walk away. Wait for a proper time, when you can give thought without sin. Give up the right to be right. Pray ask God to help you to be set free from the spirit of rage. He will do it I know, because I am a living testimony.


Gratitude #76

10 Aug

And Moses said unto the Lord, O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither heretofore, nor since thou hast spoken unto thy servant: but I am slow of speech, and of a slow tongue.

And the Lord said unto him, Who hath made man’s mouth? or who maketh the dumb, or deaf, or the seeing, or the blind? have not I the Lord?

Now therefore go, and I will be with thy mouth, and teach thee what thou shalt say.

And he said, O my Lord, send, I pray thee, by the hand of him whom thou wilt send.

And the anger of the Lord was kindled against Moses, and he said, Is not Aaron the Levite thy brother? I know that he can speak well. And also, behold, he cometh forth to meet thee: and when he seeth thee, he will be glad in his heart. -Exodus 4:10-14 KJV

Do you think Moses had an explanation, or an excuse? Explanation and excuse, two words that are often confused for one another, but they have two totally different meanings.

Have you ever tried to give an explanation for yourself, only to be told that you’re making excuses. That can be very frustrating, I know. The dictionary defines explanation as, to own up to the truth of a matter and to take responsibility for wrong doing. You know in your heart when you’re sincerely giving an explanation.

Have you ever tried to get out of something that you know you were guilty of, and instead of owning it, you come up with an excuse as to why it wasn’t your fault. The word excuse is defined as, a reason or explanation put forward to defend or justify a fault or offense. So although excuse has the word explanation in the definition, the explanation that comes from an excuse is designed to avoid responsibility. So ask yourself did Moses have an explanation or an excuse?

I believe both excuse and explanation are words that are difficult for a person to own up to. We often make excuses mostly for the things that we should not be doing. Something that is a habit, something that we know isn’t right but we continue to do it. Something that we have to give an explanation for, but when you’re not ready to expose you heart, excuses come into play.

Excuses to me are lies, I know that may be a little harsh,  but they are lies. And sadly they are lies to ourselves. The things that we try to get out of,  instead of owning up to the reason we aren’t doing what we are suppose to be doing, we make excuses. Like those things that God is calling us to do but there are a million excuses as to why we can’t do them, or why we can’t answer the call that is on our lives. Most of the time anything that we don’t want to face up to or own we make up excuses. So did Moses have an excuse?

On the flip side, an explanation is not as easy to give either. Maybe that’s why we make excuses. Explanations bear honesty, explanations occur when a person wants to be understood. They show the real us, because we are not covering up anything with an excuse. Explanations reveal our faults, our mistakes. We come to that point of accountability. Explanations also make us vulnerable because we expose our hearts. Explanations definitely are not easy, so was Moses making excuses or was he simply giving an explanation?

I personally think Moses had an explanation, at first. I think he was fearful and dealt with insecurities, concerning his speech. He didn’t feel like his speech was eloquent, he didn’t speak proper. He was honest, he opened up. But when God basically said look I got you, I will help you, I will teach you what to say. That should have took care of the insecurities, I mean it’s God for heavens sake. That’s when I feel the excuse came in, because Moses basically is like, “Can’t you just get someone else.” The explanation became an excuse. He really just didn’t want to do it. Did fear also have something to do with it?

How many times have we done this, made excuses for something God gave us to do? Just like God how many times have you gotten angry for something you asked someone to do only to first get an explanation, then you make a way for it to be done, and in turn you get an excuse. I think we all have felt that anger. God was angry. I feel like he was like forget it, your brother is coming over right? He speaks well, tell him the plan. Let him do it. God was done. I think God was like, I told Him I would give him the words to speak, I made his mouth, I will do what I will with it, all he has to do is go. Sounds like a lot of us, God sets the stage and all we have to do is go. But we make excuses. Oh yea of little faith.

I’m so grateful that God is dealing with me, He put this message on my heart. I can’t say how many times I have wanted an explanation and I have received an excuse. Or someone wanted and explanation from me and got an excuse. Excuses hurt, they show lack of trust, and a lack of faith. I know I have given my share of excuses, but it’s something about when you are connected to God. Excuses are no longer acceptable. It’s like I want to do better. I feel God pushing me to come up in my thinking, and in my faith. He’s holding me accountable to be honest and transparent. It’s time to get rid of all the habits that causes excuses. 

So what’s your thought on the matter did Moses have an explanation or an excuse. I would love to hear your thoughts. Leave a comment.

And remember when God says go let’s not make and excuse. Let’s trust Him enough to know that He is with us all the way.


Gratitude #75

5 Aug

The race is not to the swift nor the battle to the strong. However, but a time and a chance is given to us all. -Ecclesiastes 9:11

My prayer and hope is that when we depart from this gathering that our vision will be clear. Also, that we would be catapulted into our next dimension. -Prophetess Shauntae Warren on The Woman Who Win Gathering

I am so excited to be back on my blog!!! I have been away for too many days, but between the tent revival and the women who win gathering. I just needed time to process everything that happened in these events. I have been with some pretty awesome people who are on fire for the Lord. The last time I blogged I was super excited about attending our tent revival at WPKM. That was such a blessed event. As I stated in my previous blogs the Lord came and moved mightly under that tent.

I was so grateful for the tent revival it stirred me up, I was on a spiritual high. I was also preparing myself for what was to come. The Woman 2 Woman Conference. God was by no means finished with me.

I was blessed with the gift of being able to attend this conference. Which means to me God wanted me to be in attendance, there was something there just for me. I received everything that He wanted me to receive. The conference, (which is actually called a movement), was filled with so many anointed woman of God. The anointing was thick, the speakers were raw and transparent. Their testimonies stirred me, and made me feel like I can make it through anything. Nothing is too hard for God and there is a purpose in everything that He allows happen. I was so blessed that God chose me to be in attendance. I always say that I love when God comes to see about me. When He sends a prophetic on time word for me. At this movement He sent a word for us all. A word to carry in our bellies. An at the apppointed time we all will birth something amazing to bring to the Kingdom.

I learned to appreciate the process, to know that I am clay in the potters hand. God do with me as you will. I am on the wheel and even though Him shaping me and molding me may not feel good, I know that it is for the greater good. I feel strong and capable to carry the weight of the glory. Even as I am typing this I am having a wow moment.

Between the tent revival, and the women movement I was taught God is rebuilding the broken places, the victory is already won, God is calling us all to a higher place, that uncommon favor shall be our portion. The anointing of God comes with a price. That our past does qualify us, it is our come back season, that our trials will bring about our truimphs. An that it is our winning season.

These woman had amazing testimonies of Gods grace and mercy that is on there lives. Stories of survival and Gods love. They were business women from all walks of life. They were powerful and anointed and very prophetic. This movement left me feeling like Wonder Woman I tell you. As Prophetess Shauntae says, “we win, as women we can get along.”  We can laugh with one another, worship, love and support one another. It is ok for your sister to win, because you know what dropped in my spirit during that movement is that when my sister wins so do we all. One of the awesome women of God said that, “When your leader shifts you must come up, you can’t stay in the same place.” These women were leaders in there own right, so are we all. So the atmosphere must shift to the anointing on the inside of us. I’m telling you I feel like I can actually kick a door down right now. I guess I am no longer waiting for my doors to open, I am just kicking them open. I believe in the spirit I am kicking down doors and walking through them with authority.

I appreciate God and love Him so much for everything that was broken off of me during the tent revival as well as every breakthrough that came forth during the womens movement. The love, teachings, prophetice words, and worship, set me on a new path for destiny. I am so excited in the Lord.

Gratitude #74

27 Jul

Grateful for today! Another awesome day at our tent revival at WPKM. Today was family fun day and we had fun outdoors with games, face painting, a bounce house for the children, and also a psalmist Bridgette Donoho. The worship set the atmosphere off. Then we received a message from the Lord through Minister Will Wilkins. Reminding us to remember who we are in the kingdom. We can’t let the devil bully us around we must take back our authority. His message was raw and transparent.

Today I was reminded of the goodness of the Lord, His word has been consistent on both days. We are definitely in a new season, a season of blessings and transitioning.

I cannot wait for the close out on tomorrow I know that it is going to be on a whole different level. God has a way of coming in and changing the atmosphere so you can receive what He has for each one of us. I pray for the area around WPKM, that they come out and get revived in their spirit. This tent revival has rejuvenated me, I pray others come in and receive the same.

I’m just grateful.

Gratitude #73

26 Jul

If you are following me then you know me and you know my church home the place where I worship, and where I sit under the Apostolic teaching of Apostle Dr. Charisse Lewis. A place where the ground is fertile and we bear much fruit. Worldwide Prophetic Kingdom Ministries.

Our tent revival is going on now! We are closing out on Sunday! Tonight was the kick off with our Fish Fry. The WPKM family came out and showed great support. We were blessed by our EKM family who was in attendance as well. Pastors Wes and Shauntae Warren came and blessed the service, the word delivered by Pastor Wes was titled Rebuilding the broken pieces. He came out of Jeremiah 18:1-12.

There is nothing like a tent revival. It revives us, there was a fresh anointing so strong on this evening, that I literally felt drunk in the spirit. I remember during the service feeling the wind of God, a fresh wind, His presence literally saturated the atmosphere in the tent revival. I had blogged not to long ago on how Maria Woodworth-Etter held tent revivals and people were literally slayed in the spirit, they were being healed, getting up out of wheelchairs, receiving the holy ghost and speaking in tongues. God is the same God yesterday, today and forever. He doesn’t change, He is still showing up, healing and restoring us.

I promise you, that you don’t want to miss what God is doing. He showed up and showed out at the revival, come out if you are reading this and get revived in your spirit! I’m telling you the fire of the Holy Ghost is powerful and life changing! I am excited, an I feel so blessed, we all received something from God on tonight and I am in high expectation of what’s to come!

I want to see you tomorrow, which family fun day. We will also be honoring the mayor of Lincoln Park. There will be health screenings, a bounce house for the children, a raffle for the children, where we will be giving away bikes and much more. There will also be on site prayer. Come out and hear what the Lord has to say concerning you. It’s really something that you don’t want to miss!

We are located at 1911 Horger street in Lincoln Park MI 48146. I look forward to seeing your there!

Gratitude #72

25 Jul

Paradigm Shift: An important change that happens when the usual way of thinking about or doing something is replaced by a new and different way. -Merriam-Webster Dictionary

Loyalty: The quality of staying firm in your friendship or support for someone or something. -Collins English Dictionary

I was at the phone shop today because I got a new phone and I had to have it activated. The guy that was assisting me was saying how I had not only stuck with the same phone carrier for years, but I had also had the same phone for years. I replied, “Yes, and they both worked out for me really well, so I saw no reason to change either of them.” He explained to me that they were also a very good phone carrier and I would be very happy with them as well,  because they had great perks on their phone services. He went on to say that I appeared to be a very loyal person. To that I said, “Yes I am.”

I have thought about that encounter all day. Loyalty, for me is when something treats me well, it has my best interest at heart, and I am comfortable with the flow of things. I feel like why mess with a good thing. In some ways it is okay to think that way. However, there comes a time when loyalty can began to not work in our favor.  Staying in anything, whether it be because of loyalty or out of habit, or our own belief system, can sometimes become crippling. It can become generational, where we feel like because our family did it this way it has to be right, and to do it any other way is almost like a betrayl. So we continue with the same system and pass it down to the next generations, out of family loyalty. It can also become mind binding,  because we only have a one track mind on how to do something. It becomes a comfort zone where we began to feel like, well I’ve been doing it this way for this long and things are okay, it’s working out for me (which is how I felt about my phone). We don’t want to move forward, we are comfortable, so we don’t make any progress. Now being loyal and comfortable have become unhealthy all the way around.

I am grateful that the situation with my phone happened because what I realized is that even though my previous phone carrier treated me well, and my Iphone 5 (yes a 5, don’t judge me), worked and did everything that I needed it to do (till it died), it delayed me from moving forward. Or rather, I delayed me from moving forward. I was stuck from moving forward and having a better phone and service because things appeared to be good and I had all that I thought I needed. But little did I know, that better was waiting for me. We have to know that God always has greater waiting for us. We have to step out of our comfort zones.

We must have a paradigm shift, we must change our way of thinking. Yes, the old way of doing things worked and may have worked well for many generations, but I believe God wants to give us more, and show us more. There’s nothing wrong with being loyal and having core values that we may have been raised with, or even developed ourselves. Just don’t let those core values and that  systematic way of doing things put you in a box where that’s all you see.

I am also learning that it’s so important to be around new and different people. I even have to make a move in this area. Go somewhere different, see something new. Meeting new people can be some what intimidating, especially if you are an introvert like me. It’s not always the most comfortable thing for me to do, but I know that it’s a good thing to do. The thing is, it’s so exciting to learn new things, and get new ideas from different people as well as different places. Learning new things everyday can get your creative juices flowing. Open new interests for yourself. I don’t believe we ever get to a place where we have arrived. Learning is good, we should never get to a place where we think we have it all together, because that is when we miss out on all the wonderful things God has for us, and pride has taken over.

I believe that we have to be careful of speaking negatively of those who have had the paradigm shift and go for more, they believe God for what some would deem to be the impossible, or even ridiculous. They had a paradigm shift, they believed God and got what they asked for by faith. Let’s celebrate them, allow them to be an inspiration for us to do the same. Let’s take a big leap, go for that big thing, yes, that  impossible thing. Let’s think out side of the box. We have been loyal to the old way of thinking for far too long. All things are possible to them that believe. Our heavenly Father loves us all the same and there is a blessing with each one of our names on it. We just have to have the faith to believe it and the mindset to receive.

Being loyal is a wonderful quality to have, but don’t let loyalty keep you from moving forward. Let’s shift our mindsets and explore some new people, places and things. God has so much more in store for each of us.